Wednesday, August 31, 2005
alone at hm now. peace.
wtf. they tell mi no tix for superstar tml. i mean hv la, bud sumone hv to gif up theirs. i gave up, cuz i dun wan conflict n anyway, im not dat close to dat batch of colleagues. bud im still so sad. i wanna cry out loud mann. cant watch superstar!!! fuck fuck fuck!!!
exams + stress = mood swing + depression.*my life @5:54 PM
studying in sch were far off better. i didnt hv e bed to slp, i didnt hv e mood either. dis is gd. miss jiamin pang seh us mann, tink she slpt almost e whole day. msn-ing n studying at e same time in library, not too bad, can relax. haha... dat was oso bcoz im studying accounting today so din reli read much. econs tml.sickening. muz purposely go buy a royal blue colour tee for superstar dis thurs. e prob is wad colour is royal blue? throw my face mann, i work polo before yet i dunno wad is royal blue. argh. shall go giordano n c if they hv anot. y cant i juz wear a light blue tee? tote as long its blue can oreadi?went parkway parade wif parents n cousin again to hv dinner. tom yum steamboat!!!! shiok, e onli word i can describe. damn spicy n hot. eat until veri full n i seriously am getting fatter. dun dare to weigh myself. getting pay tml!!! thou onli $100+, bud still happi la. at least there's still $$$ in my pathetic account. haha... i wan faster work den faster get my bigger pay. there's so mani things i wan to buy. look at my wishlist. all at least over $100. sian half. i wanna go shopping!!!! =)*my life @12:33 AM
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
manage to finish studying e whole of management today. dunno to feel happy or sad or neither. cuz onli sum parts went in, e rest bye bye. as usual, study till i fell aslp for like 2hrs. haha... sickening. study session wif mr yongtian n ms jiamin in sch tml till fri. hope it helps. staying hm n study will mk mi slp more onli. =\dinner wif my parents n cousin at chomp². im getting fatter. ate stingray, veggie, carrot cake. enuff mann. still say wan diet, bluff myself onli. saw dad's fren n they say i've grown skinner. wahaha!!! damn happi can. bud too bad la i noe im not. =(damn pissed off now. y ppl dun wan to compromise? will die izit? wtf. u cant hv everyone compromising wif u wan loh. it takes two hands to clap u idiot.*my life @12:32 AM
Monday, August 29, 2005
woke up wif my body aching all over, thx to e badminton session ydae. reli cant turn well while slping. first thing after i woke up, FOOD. damn hungry. so had carrot cake for lunch. online awhile den study. marketing juz sux la. till now im like finishing e whole tb n i dunno wad im studying. wtf. study till i fell aslp on my bed again. =\
crapping session wif e guai kia huat chin at cp starbucks. i oso dunno wad we chatted on, basically juz anything under e sun. from work to sch to relationship to i dunno wad. ahaha... he's reli one crappy guy. saw gen n jos there too. felt nice seeing bk old frenz. =)
hm n tv n online again. shit im damn slacky. shall reli sit down n start studying tml. im in love wif techno rite now. haha omg... i noe ppl's gg to say im lian, bud e prob is im not loh. i juz like e rhythm n everything la. y muz ppl who like techno be known as bengs & lians. =\
starting work next sat n i'm damn excited. reli hope e ppl there will be nice la. other den alvin whom i noe, e rest will be my new colleagues. kinda sad, cuz cant celebrate my bdae by den. after exams den start work. kbox session will be called off i guess. =(
tml will be a better day. pics below are from e bbq session. =)
*my life @12:29 AM
Sunday, August 28, 2005
woke up earli in e morn like 7am n went badminton session wif polo mates at changi beach club. long time didnt play n my arms were aching after dat. guess corinna n me made a perfect match, as we're not reli gd in badminton bud can play well together. haha... lunch at changi village after dat.
hm n slpt for 4 hrs before i head down to pasir ris park for bbq session wif my sec sch mates. enjoyed myself. celebrated bdae for debbie as well. took alot of pictures bud i dun look gd. haha... expected la. sadded. shall upload those nice ones after jiamin has sent me. walk from e park to outside to tk bus, damn tiring la. so long. i felt so dead after reaching hm at exactly 12am. =
great. im gg bk pjc to work part time. wahahaha!!! no need to find job oreadi. =)
damn tired now. shall update tml. tata~
happy birthday debbie!!! =)
*my life @1:13 AM
Friday, August 26, 2005
ok at least i feel better now. after all e chatting wif my sch mates. they made mi feel so much better. looking forward to badminton session wif louis, corinna, calvin n yongjin tml. polo mates again. haha... i love them so much. trying to relax now, dun feel so stress oreadi. i'll juz recall wad i can during e exams. =)*my life @11:47 PM
shldnt hv went for csa lec dis morn. so boring n nth went in. wads e pt of gg if nth can go into my brain. shld hv juz slpt all e way till 1 den go for mngt tutorial. anyway passed all my coursework, now left e part of exams, gif mi a juz pass n i'll be contented. im soooo stressed up now, bcoz i cant get anything into my head. i dunno wich way of studying is den e best for me, i seriously dunno. can anyone out there juz kill mi n i can juz skip e exams. dis is so sickening. one more mk before death arrives. pray hard for mi.hving bbq wif my sec sch class tml evening at pasir ris park. didnt wan to go in e first place, cuz exams is ard e corner n i got no mood at all. frenz persuade mi go den go loh. haiss.met up wif del n she passed mi my bdae present, from her n wen. thx girl. den after dat met up wif mr yt n went tm pizza hut for dinner. n now im hm struggling for my exams. i am reli freaking out now. seriously. feel like crying out mann. haiss. =(*my life @8:11 PM
Thursday, August 25, 2005
sch as usual is super boring. used to like sch at e starting. as time goes by, its juz e same old routine, it juz bores me. im glad dat tml is e last day of e sem n study wk n exams n HOLIDAYS!!!bud sad to say, im not in e study mood. as in i study den nth go in, i dunno y oso. i reli hope i can buck up, get over my exams, get bk gd results or rather juz a pass will do. dis is all it matters to mi now.dis few days dunno y veri tired. once reach hm, study den fall aslp. lacking in slp i guess. used to like to stay out after sch ended, bud now everyday is cant wait to go hm n be alone by myself, sumtimes being alone is nicer den being wif anyone else. right now, i juz wan everyone to be happi n be contented wif wad they hv in their life. treat everyone ard u like there's no tml. u nv noe when will they be gone. =)*my life @10:58 PM
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
great. got a B for my csa coursework. time to work hard for paper. bud it seems dat everytime once i finish revising a chapter, i forget e next moment, isnt dat bad? haiss.
yeah!!! im going to watch superstar next wk in indoor stadium!!! haha... am going to wear blue as dat will be e colour if we're supporting weilian. yess im supporting him. i bet he'll be e superstar, he sings so well. i noe mani ppl dun wan him to win, bud y? juz bcoz he's a blind? hello, blind ppl oso human ok, why detest them?
goodness, my life's getting so sickening as each day pass by. dis is hell mann. studies n studies n studies, totally nth else. so no life. i juz cant wait for exams to juz finish n off i go to work. i miss working. =(
i'm jus so so sick wif my life. =\*my life @11:01 PM
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
$50 of doctor is worthwhile mann. i felt so much better when i woke up dis morn. not as weak as yester. appetite is bk, n so is my weight. sure grow fatter e next few days.as usual, sch was so boring. sian. bud was happi, cuz i got A for both my marketing n econs project. hahaha!!!!! marketing's grade mite change to a B cuz of sum stupid alignment spacing wich we did wrong, well it was our fault la. haha... bud still happi overall. bud still need to work hard in order to pass e whole thing. even if i did veri well for coursework n failed my exams, wads e pt? im slacking mann, slap mi to wk mi up.went out wif polo mates again. mr larry chang's bdae is tml n he treated us to chomp chomp to eat. so met them in town at ard 9+. they'll still e best colleagues i've ever had, alwayz had alot of fun wif them. hope to hv e next outing veri soon wif them again. =)colleague help mi call our assistant manager n ask if i could work as part time when polo jeans open in suntec next mth, he say try to ask for mi, hopefully i get e job. peeps pray for mi mann. i need $$$. so broke. =\tml no sch!!! jealous? haha... shall sit down n study my marketing. stupid term test pull down my grade, cuz i failed. wtf. so mani concepts to rem, dats enuff mann. i juz wish for a pass for exams, bud if can of cuz wan better grades la, dat goes without saying.shall sign off now. i'll be bk. haha... =p*my life @12:47 AM
Sunday, August 21, 2005
woke up feeling so so sick. temperature were running at 39.6 degree. lucky din brain damage. haha... whole body totally no strength to do anything. juz lay on bed for few hrs. din eat my dinner last nite, din eat lunch today. dinner ate half packet of rice onli. i lost 1kg. haha... so happi. totally no appetite. e food i ate are all tasteless. my mouth is full of medicine taste. went to c doc in e noon. 50 bucks. haha...
thx to e water game during e camp, i kena flu bcoz of dat. cuz after playing e game, we ran in n out of e lt den got aircon den flu. argh. n thx to e dirty disgusting game, my mum cant wash off e stain n in e end throw away e whole shirt.argh. i cant even survive thru dis camp oreadi, how to survive during e sl camp if i join. terrible. lucky im feeling better now, so tml can go sch. dun wanna miss a single lec dis wk, cuz revision lec. muz kiasu den go for everything. haha...
mite be gg indoor stadium to watch project superstar's final. haha so excited. bud still waiting for frenz's repli to c if they can get e tix. hope they can. =)i love blogging nowadays, i dunno y oso. haha... juz alot of things to crap on. ok gotta go. shall update tml. =)*my life @9:48 PM
well, went for bsc subcomm camp last nite n it was so so fun. n tiring too. mi n my frenz were all seperated into diff grp. sadded. bud like dat can noe more frenz. haha... they played so mani games dat i dun understand at all, guess im juz too slow la. 56k.
after we bathed in e nite, we sat outside tutorial rm n crap wif our senior till like 6am. unbelievable. n we woke up like 730am. eyes were feeling so hot e entire day. floor was so so hard. uncomfortable la. next morn woke up had our breakfast n off to play station games. it was so disgusting. there were dis 2 mats on flr. they put flour, milo, egg n spaghetti n mix together, n we're suppose to lie on it. our tee shirts stinks mann. e best station shld be e water part. there's dis milo tin wif holes poked below n we're supposed to carry it on our head, turn ard e dustbin n pour e water into e pail. dis is so fake la, basically they juz wan everyone to get wet. we were initially wet abit, bud our grp mate vincent went to pour e whole pail of water on us. all drenched. haha... bud so fun loh.
finally we've got e chance to learn business dance. bud i still prefer e tp mass dance. haha... our grp won e cheering competition n i dunno y oso. cuz our cheer sound so beng-ish n techno-ish. haha... guess they pity us la, cuz all girls. guys left earlier mah. qing yang yo!!!! haha...
enjoyed e camp, bud i'm like abit sick thruout. siann. keep coughing non stop n im real sick now. while walking hm, i cant walk in a straight line mann, keep going left n right. i feel so uncomfortable now. hope i'll get well veri soon. =)*my life @12:18 AM
Friday, August 19, 2005
i dunno to feel sad or happi now. happi bcoz weilian got in!!!! sad bcoz xinhui din get in... haiss. life is reli so unpredictable. even weilian got in i oso not so happi, cuz of wad yongtian said. he say dis is e way of marketing. so sadd. i got nth to say mann. =(*my life @12:05 AM
Thursday, August 18, 2005
acc tut was boring. is time for mi to brush up my acc. met up wif del for lunch at mensa n marketing lec after dat. shld say dis is e longest lec mr gary lin has given. haha... lasted for exactly 2 hrs. as usual, skipping csa lec tml, been skipping for straight 5 wks. haha... bud i dun feel bad at all.
woohoo!!! bsc subcomm camp tml!!! shall enjoy myself. haha... gonna prepare all e stuff later. hope its fun la. i'll miss my bed so much. haha... watched superstar juz now n i tink xinhui did better den kelly. much more better mann. she look so naturally while kelly like action here n there. results in another 1/2 hr time. hope dat weilian n xinhui will get in. bud i doubt so. junyang got so mani supporter. famous for his popularity mann. argh.
wasnt feeling gd e whole day. cuz fren msg mi in e morn telling mi his dad's in hospital. blood vessel burst in e brain due to his high blood pressure n may not wk up in e mean time. i feel so sad e whole day. u noe im bad at consoling ppl, n i dunno wad to say to mk him feel better. i tink all i can do now is to pray for his dad n hope everything goes well for him. alwayz look on e positive side. =)
*my life @10:55 PM
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
a better day for mi. its gd. went for csa excel test. not too bad. cuz i din reli panick den noe wad to do. haha... i passed!!!! 11.75/15. wad a weird marks rite. still got like 0.75 wan. haha... went to acc lec n it ended an hr earlier. surprised. nth went into mi. blank.
met mum at compass pt cuz i wanna go cold storage n buy snacks wif my voucher i got from RRC. bought chips chocs n milk. to mi its alot. tink im gonna get fat dis few days. dis is so so bad.
hm n did my notes n again i fell aslp. too tired oreadi, thou i slpt well last nite. had dinner n watched superstar. both junyang n kelvin were sick, fair competition thou. from e results, i tink kelvin would be out. poor thing. he's so cute. bud junyang reli did better la. haha...
dunno whether i chose retail mngt is gd or bad. cuz its related to marketing. n im not gd at marketing. failed my paper can. gd bcoz i interested bud bad bcoz my application to work is lousy. haiss.
i tink time reli pass so super fast. beginning of yr were working at flower shop, n on to polo ralph. collected results apply for poly n got in. like wth, juz close n open my eyes its oreadi aug. n 3 more wks to end e whole sem. well nvm, at least i enjoyed myself during dis period. noe more frenz n i open up more.
like will be better for me. alwayz look on e bright side. althou im a pessimist. haha... =))*my life @10:49 PM
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
4 straight hrs of econs lec, can reli die mann. like suddenly so mani things n formula to rem. argh. i'll miss econs after dis sem mann. cuz its so interesting n lecturer mr sng is so damn gd at teaching. next tues no sch. yeah!!! cuz no lec den tutorial change other day.town after dat. went to paragon quiksilver cuz can get discount. i din noe they dun hv e billabong slippers there. mountain tortoise. so din buy in e end. sadded. met up wif jane n larry den went taka n find mr ryan koh n ms wendy sim. both look so deadd. on e way bk, went op n saw dis slippers. bought it n kinda regret it. wad is dis mann.tml's hving excel test n i tink im dead. lazy to go practice oso, so meeting lisa before lab to practise. studied csa n i fell aslp while writing notes. im too tired. been hving sleepless nite for e past few days. izit bcoz of e 7th mth? i dunno. cuz after it starts, i dun slp well in e nite. haiss.ehm... ppl find u onli when they need u? i tink dis is true. why is dis so, anyone can tell mi? hope i can slp well tonite. =)to add on to my previous testi. now's 2337. feeling so sucky now. juz suddenly feel so lost n siann n bored. everyday e same routine is killing mi. my life is so boring. im not pmsing either. y am i feeling like dat? i feel like killing myself n dats it. *my life @10:15 PM
Monday, August 15, 2005
well, today indeed is a better day for mi. cuz im outta hm n i feel so much better. =)went sch today n saw marketing ppl wearing formal wear. wif blazer. damn nice n smart. i envy them mann. i wonder when its my turn to wear wif e blazer. slack in sch wif lisa to wait for yongtian. met up wif jiamin oso. went whitesand ate yakun roti den went hm. studied csa n i understand better now. contented.counting down 22 more days to my 18th bdae. ppl who rem my bdae muz wish me happi bdae ok. haha... so bhb. gonna celebrate after my exams. so shit. mite be gg kbox wif my frenz. looking forward to it. =)not gg bk polo to work oreadi. cuz scotts hv more den enuff ppl. haiss. sadded la. i need to find a job asap so i can start working after exams.tml lesson starts 9am. so siann. muz slp earli again. buying my billabong slippers tml as well. my op slippers is wearing off mann. lousy. bsc subcomm camp on fri. faster arrive la. haha...*my life @11:22 PM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
i stayed hm e whole day. and i realise its not me mann. cuz im too used to going out everyday. feel so stuffy e whole day. i had e time to study, bud didnt wan to. cuz too lazy n i cant concentrate. dis is bad.
i juz realise dat if u treat one person nice, u mite not get e same treatment bk. not bcoz sumone treat mi bad today, juz tote of it. i guess e old me is bk. mood swing here n there.
hope tml will be a better day. =)
*my life @11:59 PM
Saturday, August 13, 2005
ok finally done wif my blogskin. had a hard time looking thru all those dumb html code. argh. almost died mann. muz slowly improve e fonts colour n everything. shall wait until exams are over.
gg airport. shall blog tml. nth much happen today. =)*my life @9:40 PM
